There is a fine layer of frosty coldness on everything outdoors and underneath the street lights it glitters and glistens and it is quite pretty. I have just had an hour to walk along enjoying it and that is probably enough. I am just getting myself outside of nice cup of tea to try and defrost. It was a toss up between walking back from dancing tonight and walking to work in the morning so I opted for the night time walk. There is peace and time to think without distractions. I miss my weekend solitary rambles that I used to do but I don’t seem to get the time at the moment.

It won’t be easy turning out in the morning if it is all frosty and freezing. I don’t find it easy to push back the duvet and dip my toe into another cold morning. And that’s with the heating on. If we didn’t have that I would not be getting out of bed until about May.

I have made a really nice cake today – well I hope it is nice – it is a coffee streusel cake but instead of adding chopped almonds (because I didn’t have any) I added chopped milk and white chocolate (which I did have). I also made some blueberry muffins. All good comfort food but of course I won’t be partaking myself. It is not easy to turn down chocolate but I am pretty determined when I want to be.

I’ve been in the bad place a couple of days. Where all the walls are hung with morose feelings and lugubrious colours and floor is made of trampled dreams and the ceiling is a bulging black cloud ready to burst in a flood of self-pity and misery. Sounds so much better than saying I have PMT!

However, today has a sunny-blue-sky hat on and in spite of the temperature gauge reading 2 degrees the garden calls. I have swept some seeds and some fairies out of the little shed just as a warm up exercise but then I was offered a cup of tea and you know how it is…..