I went to bed in all good faith feeling sleepy, started nodding off and then the telephone rang. After a short period of tossing and turning I decided that sleep was a long way off still so I got up and stumped downstairs with a my duvet and my book only to be joined by the girlie who had the same problem. We had a midnight feast – though not in the dorm – and watched a spot of Dads Army and she decided to give the sandman another try but I am even more wide awake now than I was then! So, here I am, 1am.
I have been mostly a bit distracted and a bit depressed recently. Oh not in any really heavy way but I just feel unsettled by things that are currently in transit. My girlie is having a gap year but although she is keeping busy she hasn’t found a job that is doing enough to stimulate her and it is worrying me. Added to which hubby announced yesterday that in fact his last day at work will be….this Friday. He ‘retires’ from the police technically at the end of January but with all the accrued time owing he finishes this week. I was expecting it to be December so this has pulled the rug out a bit. He is unsurprisingly quite up-and-down as anyone would be facing the end of a career so it doesn’t make for a relaxed atmosphere at home. And I am so busy at work atm that I don’t feel I am giving either of them enough attention. It doesn’t seem that long ago that the children were at school and hubby was at work and me working only part time I had time to do my housework (and etc.) without interruptions. In a few years everything is turned completely on its head and next week I shall be the only one going out to work. I need time to adjust.
And then there is Christmas just around the corner, which has a habit of creeping up on you while you’re still folding up your sandals. Actually I don’t have fold-up sandals so that is silly.
It has been a busy week at work as I have been doing some update sessions on Confidentiality. As it is directed at all the staff from highest to lowest I have had to break them down into three groups to make it manageable and I’ve done two of three so far. I prepared a presentation, booklets for the discussion group bit, and even made lunch but the best part was to see how much it got people talking and thinking. The first one I was very nervous about doing because there were at least two people in the group whose opinion I have heard on the subject of bad presentations and bad presenters. Today’s, however, was less daunting and therefore almost enjoyable. The performer in me, or rather the attention-seeking show-off in me, does like to have an audience - but I still prefer an audience that is sitting somewhere beyond the apron in the darkened stalls, it’s quite off-putting to see the whites of their eyes. But I even got a little round of applause for today’s session which made me feel quite shiny and nice for a while.
I think I really should try the whole sleep thing again now.













